Hey guys!

I definitely need some serious prayer. Everything is crazy right now. Need to focus on God because I'm feeling overwhelmed with stuff and my mom is coming to family camp for Young Life this weekend and just all this stuff that I shouldn't worry about. Thanks!

Hey guys! I think this is the longest I have ever waited to post on xanga. July?! There has definitely been stuff happening in my life since then. You all know that. So I'll let you know what's going on right now. I have been making the transition of starting my new job as full-time staff on Young Life for East Islip. It's amazing. It's also a lot of hard work. Last night I had a very important meeting. I was told by my area director, TK, that I had to give an introdutiona bout Young life and my role in it before the church consistory. Thankfully, I had no problem getting put on the consistory's agenda because of the amazing Jenn Martin. (Thanks again for getting me in!) So as you may or may not know, I hate talking in front of people. I think its my biggest weakness in this ministry. I was really nervous last night because I had to do most of the talking, but I think it went well. Brian (my partner) talked a little bit about himself and then I asked everyone if they had questions. I had an answer for all of them!  So I think it turned out to be not so bad after all. I have been told I really after get over my fear of public speaking. So please pray that God will help me overcome this. I think he did last night, but I still need prayer. Thanks! Oh and if you want to be updated about what I'm doing, e-mail me at italiana5050@yahoo.com and I'll put you on my e-mail prayer list. God Bless.

Still thinking about this since yesterday. What does this mean to you. Think about it.

Matthew 16:24 "Then Jesus said to his disciples, 'If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me."

Currently Listening Stay By Jeremy Camp see related

Hey guys!! I just got back from Camp Barnabas last night. It was absolutely amazing. It was really rough because of the heat and just trying to stay positive and take car eof the kid I was assigned to (she had Down's Syndrome) Her name was Casey and she was the sweetest little girl. She called me La-La all week longbecause she oculdn't say my name right. So funny! God really stretched me and I learned to be patient (it was tested) and I completely stepped out of my comfort zone. I really had to put Casey's needs ahead of my own and it was hard for me to do that for an entire week, but I survived. I learned that I really haven't been doing that, not even really trying to do that here at home and I want to start like as soon as possible.

P.S. No longer working at Suffolk Life. I quit the day before I left for camp on July 14. Not the smartest move, but it's over and I'm happy. I can talk about it more at a later date with those who are interested. Please continue to pray!!

God is so good to me!!!

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I got a job at Suffolk Life Newspaper!  I start on Tuesday. Prayers are needed. Thanks!

Currently Watching Pride & Prejudice (Widescreen Edition) see related

Ok it is definitely time to post. So, as of Sunday, I am officially a college graduate. Woohoo! Finally. I had alot of fun at my party with all you cool people. It was fun hanging out and playing games. Playing those games makes me realize why I was meant to be a Young Life leader. Haha! By the way, has anyone ever played "I went to Paris"? I never played it before or even saw it and I thought it was hilarious. (played it at YL last night)

Anyway, I have been thinking that I love being a Young Life leader and I don't want it to end, which is why I plan on staying on Long Island. I really can't believe that I am a leader sometimes. What qualities does a leader have and do I have those qualities? I was thinking about this today. I really feel like I just have to get out of my comfort zone like I did when I first began. It sounds simple when I say it, but now I actually have to DO it. I really feel like these kids NEED someone to tell them about Christ. I wished somebody would have told me in high school or that I had an older mentor person to talk to. I see myself in some of these Young Life girls, they remind me of myself when I was in high school and it freaks me out because I have to deal with myself, like a mini-me.

Does that make sense? Maybe it doesn't. I'll try again. These girls, if they are anything like me when I was in high school, well then they REALLY need Christ. I may have portrayed my high school self in a negative light just now, but I had to in order to prove a point. THESE KIDS NEED CHRIST AND I HAVE TO PRAY LIKE MY LIFE DEPENDS ON IT!